Friday, January 30, 2009
1 Year
Five and a half months in breathtaking New Zealand. A little over a week in Australia. Come home to a week with family at Lawrence Welk in Escondido. Houseboating at Lake Mead. Camping at San Onofre. A weekend fishing trip up in Mammoth. A month in Alaska. A weekend spent in Sequoia and Yosemite. Finished off by celebrating the New Year in Mammoth. These travels were nice, but they were only a means to the more important stuff. I had the opportunity to meet different, exciting, unique people and lifestyles and cultures from all over the world, experience the trying fluxuation and growing of friendships and relationships already in place, enjoy countless real conversations about new ideas and thoughts and what it means to think differently than we're accustomed or supposed to, and give up on a few those ideas that didn't seem to be of such importance anymore. All good things.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
A Rough Draft of Sorts
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Reading, Reading...
ll. Finally I came across a table with an intriguing green-covered book titled Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. Feeling successful, I proudly carried the book up to the front counter just to let the manager tell me they won't be allowing me to do any exchanges that day.That said, my extended time in the book store did motivate me to do more reading. I remember a friend at the beginning of last year setting a goal of reading six books by the end of the year, though I'm pretty sure she surpassed it by quite a bit. I started off hot, and slowed down, well almost stopped towards the end of the year, here's a list of the books I read in full:
1. Searching for God Knows What, Donald Miller
2. The Hobbit, J.R.R. Tolkien
3. The Fellowship of the Ring, J.R.R. Tolkien
4. The Two Towers, J.R.R. Tolkien
5. The Motorcycle Diaries, Che Guevara
6. The Return of the King, J.R.R. Tolkien (I was in NZ, it was only appropriate)
7. The Last American Man, Elizabeth Gilbert
Sad thing is that was completed when I was still in Alaska in September. Some may consider the LOTR trilogy as one book, but if I'm counting, they're three, those things took forever. This quarter I'm taking an interesting Religious Studies and Womens Studies class, and I actually intend to keep up with the reading for them. We'll see.
Monday, December 8, 2008
An Email I Sent...
I walked around town that night after small group. It was super humbling, but not because I met some awesome homeless man and we talked late into the night, or because I was able to offer something to someone in need that we take for granted daily. No, I didn't talk to anyone actually. I timidly asked one man how his night was going, but he wasn't keen on making a new friend, and the only other person I passed who wasn't attempting to sleep was talking to some other guy. Walking around, I realized quickly I had no idea what exactly I was doing, or how to go about doing it, and although I was praying for God to show me things and use me, there was still uneasiness inside me that I couldn't place. So as I was walking back to my flat disappointed because I didn't make any new friends like I had expected, I realized why I felt uneasy and why I had all of the hesitations that I did before.
I was treating this like an event, like a reaching out, like a personal sacrifice for the good of others. Embarrassingly, there was a feeling of self-righteousness knowing that not enough Christians do this, but at the same time there was a feeling of disappointment that hanging with the homeless is slowly becoming more popular, meaning that my actions aren't as radical or admirable as I'd like them to be. Ah the truth inside is so sick eh? Anyway, all of this said, it's about making it a lifestyle. It's not about reaching out to the homeless, it's about being among them and being among them and being among them so that its normal, its routine, so that it goes unnoticed even by ourselves. I feel like I don't deserve for anyone on the streets to give me the light of day, because I had expectations of "amazing" things happening that would ultimately end in feelings of self satisfaction and praise. God showed me how little one night means. He showed me how many nights and days filled with a pure, selfless, and caring heart, (especially after remaining too still for so many years), that it would take before I would deserve respect from people on the streets. Fortunately, I have a feeling they show grace in much greater abundance then any other group of people. Amen to that!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
An Email I Received...
I received one of those mass emails from a friend the other day, updating a group of us on what’s been going on in her life the last couple of months. In it she shared the highlights of her quarter so far up at UC Davis. Describing one of her highlights to us she wrote…
I joined a club called Acorn Mentoring Project where every week a group of UCD students go to a lower income neighborhood in
I have another friend who went down to
Another friend volunteered with an organization called Best Buddies, where she was matched up with someone with intellectual disabilities. They would hang out one on one, grab dinner together, and take part in events like barbecues or bowling. All of this in hopes of being a friend the person could count on and in doing so bettering their lives.
These are just a few examples of people who, as far as I know, don’t really claim to have a relationship with Jesus, and don’t have that to influence the decisions they make, or what they do with their time.
After I read that email I got to thinking a bit and my whole thing is this…
If I did any of these things, I would feel incredibly self-righteous. Here I am believing we’re called to love those who need it the most, and I can’t see myself doing anything without afterwards feeling this false stamp of approval on my heart and my actions. And then there are people who do truly Good things without ever thinking twice about themselves. Hmm… I’m missing something here.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
#3.
Dead Tree. Yosemite Falls.It was last night that I realized again that I like writing. It usually takes me a long time to find words that I'm satisfied with, but its a good process for me. I usually start writing something before I exactly know what I'll be writing about, or how I feel about it, so it's always a sort of a discover-what-I-actually-think type of thing.
I realized while emailing people from NZ that the best time of day to write is late at night when I'm tired. There's something about the lack of filter in my head then, and how the thoughts and words seem to flow more freely. I told a friend once that I'd like that same lack of filter to be present when the sun was still in the middle of the sky, but I'm not too sure how to make that work just yet.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Yosemite at Night #2.
Following this, we flipped the camera around, shot the other way, and proceeded to dance in front of it out there on that beach. What fools! You should've been there.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Yosemite at Night.
It was night. It was foggy. It was freezing, almost literally. There was not a soul out there with us. We stood there, in that, unfortunately, now only nearly wild place. Uncomfortable. Cold. Scared. Scared of the dark, of what might come out of the fog, of that unidentified white object floating down the river towards us. In a petty situation like this I was able to stop and realize, this is all worth it. All of these things I would change given the chance and power actually make the situation more beautiful, more memorable. Beauty has depth you see. It's the despair and discomfort of things that bring true beauty to the situation. Real beauty. Beauty that's worth it.
Maybe I use the word beauty too much, I don't really care. The point is, how can I realize this same thing in situations that carry a little more gravity? How can I be grateful for the very things that I would change given the power and opportunity?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Sequoia and Yosemite... Bam!
and setting sun over the San Joaquin Valley
Quote of the weekend definitely goes to Travis on our last night in Yosemite: "Hey look, we got a doggie." As Dave and I turn around to see a bear walking up to and through our campsite. Literally between my car and the bear bin. We all jumped up, Travis banged some pots together and we watched it run past our neighbors and into the dark. Then for the next couple of minutes we tracked the bear's progress by the sound of other campers' clanking pots from throughout the campground.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
In Flanders Fields
We are the Dead. Short days ago
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Mt. Baldy
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
The Far Side of the Mountain
Monday, September 29, 2008
Flightseeing!

My favorite being Flightseeing. Like I said before, I had the opportunity to jump on a plane and fly over Denali National Park, and then fly between and around Mt. McKinley. I was literally looking down on the 20,300 foot summit, the tallest in North America.
The first time I saw Mt. McKinley was from 110 miles away on the Stampede Trail, and it still looked massive from there. I was able to get within 2,500 hundred feet of the mountain, remarkable! A third of the people who visit Alaska actually get to see the mountain because of the crazy weather and clouds that usually surround it. It's so big it creates it's own weather system I hear. Obviously I was pretty dang fortunate to have good weather while up in that plane. Can't be grateful enough for this opportunity, still wowwed by it.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Welcome to Alaska!
I returned home from Alaska later than originally planned Saturday night. It is now early Friday morning. I didn't have much access to the internet while up there, so instead of posting cool things while they happened, I'll have to do it all in retrospect. I also don't want to try to cram my time spent up there into one post, so this may turn into a bit of a miniseries, if that's okay.
I had expectations for Alaska that I didn't expect to be met, if that makes sense. Expectations usually ruin things. In this case, Alaska was actually so wide open, so huge, so overly beautiful and refreshing and welcoming that it surprised me. I lived in the small town of Healy, about ten minutes down the highway from the entrance to Denali National Park, and all of the resorts and tourists that come with it. For 'work', I gave ATV tours on the nearby abandoned coal mining roads and on the Stampede Trail. I also did a couple of side jobs, like paint the boss's bathroom, help construct a massive tent, and dig up a collapsed sewage tank. :)
In Alaska, I didn't have a close encounter with a Grizzly like I had hesitantly hoped for going in, or a Moose or Lynx or Wolf or even Dall Sheep for that matter. I didn't spend a freezing night alone out by the bus, or spend multiple days tramping around the interior of Denali. I didn't do an incredibly challenging trek to the top of any great mountain either. I did manage to lose things though: Lens cap and polarizer, beanie (though only for a time), jacket, gloves. And I also met people. Hundreds of twenty-something guys and girls from all over flock to Denali for four months out of the year to work and have a good time. I met bartenders, waitresses, coal miners, raft guides, housekeepers, horse guides, coffee shoppers, hotel managers, cooks, actresses, etc., from all different parts of the world. Who knew the people would be my favorite part of the trip.
Besides just meeting people, I had the opportunity to do some pretty amazing things that I'm beyond grateful for: I took an 11 hour bus ride eighty-six miles into the heart of Denali National Park, the third largest national park in the country, went white water rafting down the freezing glacial melt off known as the Nenana River, hopped on a little ten-passenger plane as it toured the park and flew over, in between, and around the 20,300 summit of Mt. McKinley, and finally, thanks to the guys I worked with, was serenaded with happy birthday by an auditorium full of sixty and seventy year old tourists who were just trying to enjoy their cheesy musical and all you can eat salmon and ribs.
Monday, August 25, 2008
A Little Source of Inspiration

So I'm reading this book called The Last American Man by Elizabeth Gilbert. It's about a guy, Eustace Conway, who lives off of the land in his teepee somewhere near the Appalachian Mountains. Obviously, there's a lot more to him than just that, but for the sake of passage, you get the idea. Here's a little excerpt describing a time he rode his horse across the country with a few pals:
The three riders galloped along, burning away nearly fifty miles a day. They ate roadkill deer and squirrel soup. They slept in barns and in the homes of awestruck locals, but when they reached the dry, open West, they fell off their horses every night and slept on the ground where they fell. They were nearly killed by swerving eighteen-wheelers when their horses went wild on a busy interstate bridge one afternoon. They were nearly arrested in Mississippi for not wearing shirts. In San Diego, they picketed their horses along a patch of grass between a mall and an eight-lane highway. They slept there that night and arrived at the Pacific Ocean the next afternoon. Eustace Conway rode his horse right into the surf. It was ten hours before Easter. He had crossed the country in 103 days, setting, while he was at it, a world record.
From coast to coast, Americans of every conceivable background had looked up at Eustace Conway on his horse and said, "I wish I could do what you're doing."
And to every last citizen, Eustace had replied, "You can."
So yeah. This is my life. I can do what I want with it. I'm the only one responsible for who I am. I'm the only one to look at if I don't like what I'm doing, or if I feel like I'm missing out on something that matters. This is something I've been pondering over the last six months or so. I can be great, I can accomplish things, all I have to do is be willing to make it happen. Again, I don't see any reason not to.
Now off to Alaska. I'm thrilled for what's in store for me, but I'm being careful what I wish for. I want adventure, I want adrenaline, I want nature in its purest form, I even want discomfort, but there's a coherent risk to it all that we have to accept along with the beauty. Alaska is no Disneyland, it's the wild, there's no telling what may happen, and that's exactly what people are drawn to.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
OZ
Let me tell you about a little town called Ayrlie Beach. It's on the Eastern Coast of Australia, somewhere between Brisbane and Cairns. It's the launch point to the Whitsunday Islands National Park. It's labeled as a backpacker town, meaning it's the inexpensive option to a tourist town like Cairns, resulting in a different, more down-to-earth, laid back crowd compared to other places. There's one main drag through town, and on this street there's a couple of sweet hostels with huge open air bars, one ridiculously overpriced and tiny grocery store, a Subway (just like every other town down under), and then the rest of the street is occupied by about fifty annoying booking agencies selling all of the tourist attractions around there. The beach here is only so-so, so there is a big natural water lagoon in town that we hung out at each day. So the routine follows... go lay by the lagoon during the day, read, sleep, get a little sun, grab a sandwich for dinner and go down to the beach to watch what was probably the most beautiful sunset I've ever seen, and then go play some mean cards in one of the bars and meet people from all over the world. Not to mention, after doing this for a couple of days it was time to hop on a sailboat and spend a couple more days cruising around the Whitsunday Islands. Needless to say, I was quite reluctant to jump on a plane back to Sydney.
Sydney was different. The Opera House is remarkable to actually see in person, and the Harbour Bridge is huge, and there's a lot of interesting districts like The Rocks and Kings Cross. The city is super clean, with rad old buildings and nice parks and I felt like a lot of character, especially compared to Auckland. My favorite part was walking through the Botanical Gardens where there were at least a thousand bats, not exaggerating, each with a wingspan of two feet. Then my sister and I got dragged in to taking part in a street performance too. I have to say though, I was a bit turned off of the whole big city atmosphere after traveling around all these small towns in NZ. The people were too caught up on their image, walking around the city everyone was so put together it tainted it for me a bit. My last night, I planned on walking down the street from my hostel to take a picture or two, and ended up walking all the way down to the Darling Harbour. It was good to walk around the city alone and take it in when it wasn't so hectic and there weren't so many people around.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Time Well Spent
So this is me and my friends. I tagged along with them up to the Mammoth Lakes area this weekend. It was Good to be up there. We did some good fishing in the lakes and a river, explored around as much of that gorgeous area as possible, took a gondola to the top of the mountain, enjoyed a couple of mean campfires late into the night (well, some of us did), we did well.
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Bittersweet as...
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Nearing the End...
Last Saturday The All Blacks played England at Eden Park and a group of us went to the game. The All Blacks worked 'em 37-20. I enjoy rugby, but the best part of an All Blacks game is the pregame Haka. Just imagine lining up opposite these guys prior to a match.
All Blacks vs. South Africa (2006). Is this awesome or what?!
I also took a ferry with some friends to Rangitoto Island last week. It's the largest and most recent of over fifty volcanoes around Auckland. We explored some sweet lava caves and relaxed up on top for a while. It's always fun hopping on a boat and going around the harbor. Besides that, I've been hanging around Auckland and taking things pretty slow. Just trying to take in as much as possible and enjoy the city and the company before I head out.
The Auckland War Memorial Museum at the DomainWednesday, June 4, 2008
The Coromandel Peninsula
Fortunately no one bothered us throughout the night and I woke up early the next morning, walked ten meters, and watched the sunrise over the Pacific for the very first time. Next we went and experienced Hot Water Beach, which is this sweet beach where there's thermal pools underneath the sand, so you dig holes during low tide and the hot thermal water mixes in with some of the ocean water and you have a natural spa on the beach. It sounds unreal, especially since I don't know how many times back home I've dug holes and wished for just this. So we hung out there for a little while and then drove back to the car park where we had camped the previous night and hiked to Cathedral Cove. This is where they filmed the opening scene to Prince Caspian, and hearing that beforehand may have made my expectations unrealistic, but it was still really beautiful and so relaxing to hang there.
It was right after this when our car decided our fate for the rest of the weekend. After a couple times shutting off while we were still in motion and multiple naps on the side of the road while letting it cool off, we turned it in to a mechanic in Tairua and spent the night at a hostel there. That gave us plenty of time to play some mean Ping Pong, and meant the next day entailed racing each other back to Auckland via hitch hiking. The well-off weekenders from Auckland were quite reluctant to offer up some rides at first, but after a while we all got picked up and made our way back to town. And that was the weekend.






